Drunken Absurdity

my homework assignment

>> Sunday, November 21, 2010

jesus those eyes. they stare at me from the abyss of electric anonymity. smoky and smoldering they pierce through me, distracting me from the the debauchery being comitted elsewhere. so many have gone before her, since I can even remeber, what makes her so special? young and innocent looking, these disguise her inner flame. for sonmething burns in her, the same fire that burns in any real artist. some paint, some write, and others record the utter essenence of humanity for all to see. pale skin and a petite frame make her apppear to be weak, but nothing could be farther from the truth. she is dominate through submission. my eyes stay transfixed on the screen, well beyond the simple lecherous thoughts that first made me turn the computer on. spellbound now. there is something different. she is not like the others, not a simple vessel who will soon be used up and spit out by this lifestyle. no, she will remain. persist. she has already burst onto mainstream consciousness, but that wont be the end of it. we are entering a new era of humanity, one of open debauchery, completely hedonistic lifestyles being thrust into the limelightt. what was once taboo is now commonplace, and she is the poster child of this ascent into full transcendence of the moral compass of this country. and holy fuck is she so fucking hot.....

Acceptance without Resignation

>> Thursday, October 14, 2010

half the point of this blog is my obsession with the concept of Absurdism. a philosophy brought to modern attention by the genius algerian Albert Camus, even though he shunned the title later in life. basically the answer to nihilism that us as humans will constantly search for a meaning of life, while such meaning is impossible to find with our mere human perception of the dark, cold universe. hence: absurd. but the point isnt to despair with this revelation, but to rejoice in the relief that it is pointless to find meaning, and to embrace the ridiculousness of it all.

this had a great impact on me when i first discovered the writing of old albert. in his words, the absurd "struck me in the face". it was this moment when i first stopped trying to be normal, or whatever the fuck normal is. when i first stopped feeling guilt over my desires and perversions and drinking habits. when i embarked on a new path in life focused on embracing the absurdity of our human condition. most of this embracing involves alcohol mostly(obviously). to me booze is a celebration of this concept. not just a medicine to ease the brutal reality of the modern world, but an ambassador to the world of the absurd. the 12 steppers who spout off that you can have just as much fun without booze should be dragged by the ankles to the town square and locked into stocks. this myth is such a trendy lie in our country, and i am sick of it. you can always have fun sober, but anyone that says that they have MORE fun in that despicable condition. sweet beautiful alcohol will always be there to take you along that absurd path.

dont despair over our solititude in a uncaring galaxy. dont cry over unanswerd prayers. smile, drink, fuck, fight, laugh, jerk off, do drugs. do what you need to do. but do it to celebrate our damned path.

"don't wait for the Last Judgement, it takes place everyday"-a.c.

i fucking miss these days....

16 years old, at little venue shows, gettin it....

Between the Sheets

>> Wednesday, October 13, 2010

1 part Brandy
1 part White rum
1 part Triple sec
dash of Lemon juice

Shake all the ingredients with the ice. Pour into a cocktail glass.

truth

there really isnt much to say
when you realize
that the world isnt for you
there isnt much to cry about
when you realize that
you will never be
one of them
there isnt much to do
when it becomes clear that
the people
and things
and places
that make up your daily life'
fill you to the brim
with utter disgust and hatred
there isnt much to worry about
when you stand on the outside
and look in on the world
spinning and laughing without you
you can smile
and walk amongst the crowds
but there is the truth
that you are beyond it all
always in your mind